You know they say, If you want to make God laugh, Plan. I thought I knew what I wanted and that if I went for it, on my feet I would land.
How can I want dreams and aspirations and not plan for them? God said “Faith without works is dead. So how can I not plan, and solely rely on him?
God what am I to do? On earth life is hard. I’m a single mother and it seems that every time I have it together, I’m knocked down . I want more in life for my kids and I, but what am I to do when there’s a crook in my crown?
I pray and I pray, and yes sometimes there seems like a disconnect between you and I. God I’m trying to survive this world we are living in, all the while trying to put your vision into my eyes.
Where am I going Lord? What am I doing? What am I not doing? I feel like I’m destined for greatness, I feel so close. Then I get put in situations where I feel like my life is doing the most.
I keep meeting these men who pretend to love me, I keep meeting these friends who continue to disappoint me. Family who stab me in my back. God, talk to me. What am i to do? I just want to redirect my story.
I want to know the blessings I have in store. I want to know through this hard life, what do I have to do in order to receive those blessings I know you have for me and many more.
God please direct me, guide me. I’m sick of the trials and tribulations. I’m ready for my reparations and restoration.
I see my future so bright, guide me Lord to see the light.
In Jesus Name I Pray Amen.
Ashley Monae 