Ashley Monae

I do it everytime.

I do this shit every time.

I give all of me with little to no reciprocation.

Then you expect me to explain the depth of my frustration.

But I know the risks.

The risks and fears of speaking my mind.

The fear of losing you ,and our course running it’s time.

All because I told you how I really felt.

And most of it is apart of the traumatized past that I was dealt.

You see I haven’t healed quite just yet.

And I recognize patterns within myself i just don’t want to fall back into, but if I don’t will I be the person you regret?

You really mean something to me, and someone I definitely don’t want to lose.

But I’m more afraid of losing myself,

So Which risk am I willing to take? Who am I willing to lose?

Me or you?