You were my best friend. You knew things I would never tell a soul. You seen my light and my darkness. But for some reason I never really knew you. You had a part of you I never knew existed. So were you really my best friend? Or was it that you loved me that much that you vowed to keep that part away from me in fear I would walk away? Which really makes me really feel we could have never been so close if you thought I could judge you in anyway. But knowing how I felt, and seen everything I’ve ever been through. The hurt, joy, pain and blessings. You decided to hurt me more instead of protecting the very innocence I had left. Maybe that wasn’t your intentions in the beginning, but you should have separated the lover from the best friend. Saved my heart instead of taking away the last bit of hope i had in men. I never thought it would be you to crush my entire being. When there would be days you would come over just to force a laugh and to wipe away my tears. Now your the one who’s causing them. And it doesn’t hurt in a lovers sense, because I’ve been through that time and time again. I’ve developed a numb feeling in my heart. However It hurts more that as my best friend, you felt you couldn’t come talk to me. Now your a complete stranger to me. My trust is broken, my love is numb. All because I thought out it all men, you would never hurt me. How could I be so dumb?
Why you?
Ashley Monae 